I consider myself an inspirational motivator. I love to write short stories, poems and my opinions about different situations in my life and current events. My inspiration comes from my faith in God, and also past and present life situations. This is my first time Ive placed any of my work for public viewing. I hope you enjoy.
I wrote this piece during one of my many low points in life...
August 15, 2006
3:21am
HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE IT
I’ve made some decisions in my life in search of being happy,
I have left my boyfriend and his home to move in with my momma and daddy,
I left a comfortable bed, for my kids and I to sleep on the couch and floor,
I have left what some would consider the good life in search of something more.
I prayed to God that He would carry us through this journey,
I prayed in Jesus’ mighty name that this decision didn't turn around and burn me.
Im back to walking, catching rides and riding the bus again,
I have no home, no car and looking for assistance from those I can depend.
My money is depleting, my stress is increasing, my faith has turned to doubt,
I claim I’m blessed, and this is only a test, so what am I so worried about.
Im in a state of depression, I'm scared of the out come. Should I go back?
Should I withstand being unhappy for convenience and allow my inner being to lack?
Or should I stay here, endure the inconvenience and do my best to take it?
I am so confused on this issue at hand, 'Lord' I ask ‘HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE IT?’
Im praying and begging for some guidance I need You to see us through,
I’m trying not to worry but I have kids involved, I need to know what to do.
I know I should be grateful and I truly am because it could be worse,
And I have lived better than some because I am determined to put You first.
I could return to the old me lying, stealing, tricking or selling drugs for cash,
But I have overcome that part of my life and the type of money and life don’t last.
Im in need of a breakthrough before a breakdown come about,
Im so tired God, I need some answers, Im in need of a blessing right now.
Im in need of a miracle, a silver lining, in need of morning to come,
My faith has weaken, my patience is short, my understanding is fading, please help me along.
My reality is causing frustration; I don’t think I can take anymore,
So I ask You Lord, ‘How am I going to make it?’ although deep inside I know.
How am I going to make it? I ask and now I know my answer,
through prayer and faith in Jehovah our God, our Father, our supreme Master.
I will rejoice in You Lord, continue to repeat the 23rd psalm, and pray,
Because I know God loves me and in the name of Jesus, He will make a way.
Plain Jane
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